SKELETONS (C) Jun 13, 2012 21:23:33 GMT -5
Post by MARUMARU ITSUKI on Jun 13, 2012 21:23:33 GMT -5
[/justify][/blockquote][/blockquote]He was close. Probably a little too close; because all of a sudden things were feeling quite awkward, and it probably had a lot to do with the fact that Itsuki was now practically forced to look at the blonde, and see exactly what he was feeling. This wasn't fair - what a cheap, dirty tactic! How was he meant to remain emotionally distant when the physical distance was practically gone? Kou was cheating.
But while all of this should, really, have made Itsuki feel more sympathetic, it actually had the opposite effect - because yes, he did feel cheated, and no, he didn't think he owed anyone anything.
"Kou, did you fail biology? Or have you just never been sick before? Because being around people was the last thing I wanted." Oh no, he was raising his voice again. But whose fault was that? It certainly wasn't his. He wasn't the one who couldn't let go of the past! "Maybe I could have given you a chance, but you know, I had other things on my mind." Again his hand went to his shoulder, and he couldn't keep looking at Kou in the eye anymore - his gaze fell, but only for an instant, because he hadn't quite finished making his voice heard.
"I wasn't alone, I had... I was surrounded by people, all the time, constantly, do you really thing I would've welcomed another nosy, pushy someone constantly getting in the way?" He had been about to say 'I had Ayato', but got the feeling it wouldn't have gone down too well. Not that what he'd said would improve things, anyway, but it still probably wasn't a good idea to bring up how much he trusted his brother in comparison to everyone else in the world. Might tread on a few toes, with a statement like that.
"And you know, you've had all the time in the world to find me. It's not like I left the country." He said so rather bluntly, but he knew it wasn't fair: just a word to Ayato and he knew his brother would make it extra hard for anyone to find him. "I couldn't go back, Kou, I knew how people were talking about me. The sixteen year old kid who got wasted and nearly killed himself. I wanted a fresh start, and that went for everything."